From Online Etymology Dictionary:
Atheist, 1570s, from Fr. athéiste (16c.), from Gk. atheos “to deny the gods, godless,” from a- “without” + theos “a god.”
Agnostic, 1870, from Gk. agnostos “unknown, unknowable,” from a- “not” + gnostos “(to be) known.”
Atheists pride themselves that their views are based on knowledge and not beliefs. While they claim there is no good evidence for God’s existence, neither can they say they know God does not exist. To know God does not exist would require all knowledge of existence, which no person has. To accept the badge of agnostic is in conflict with the atheist’s claim that they only hold views based on knowing something. So to avoid calling themselves agnostic, the definition ‘lack of belief in God’ has come about so the term atheist can still be logically used. But it fails, for it is illogical to claim you are one thing when you are really another. For example, what do you call at person who holds they know there is no God? According to the ‘lack of belief’ folks, they are atheist. But if a theist uses this same definition of atheism, they are wrong. Words to not change meaning based on who is defining the term.
I’m angry at God. I don’t understand how everyone in my life can find happiness… How the people that hurt me so much when I was younger can go on with their lives and be “blessed” and such while I hurt, yearn, and hunger for some kind of life other than this stale, depressing, hurtful one. I used to pray solidly for years… I followed as best as I could. I did everything and I believed. It’s truly as if God hates me. Or has forgotten me.
I need advice, because I’m pulling away from the only thing that ever gave me comfort; hope and trust in God. I mean, if He pulls away from me, why shouldn’t I from Him? I don’t want to do this… but I feel as if there’s no choice. Please… Help me.
You mention people who hurt you. Do you wish them to suffer? Could your distain for them be hindering your relationship with God?
God is loving and forgiving. He loves you and forgives you (if you have truly repented and put your trust in Christ). He wants you to be loving and forgiving too. This not only pleases God but is also in your best interest. Hate and unforgiveness hurts us and disrupts our relationship with God. Seek God’s love and power to forgive the people you may find unforgiveable.
Philippians 4:13 I can do all things through him who strengthens me.
Also, I don’t know how ‘happy’ Jesus was. He seemed to have other goals such as:
Matthew 6:33 But seek first the kingdom of God and his righteousness, and all these things will be added to you.
It certainly helps to be happy in life and I hope you can find some with Jesus as opposed to apart from him.
Why doesn’t God love me? Nobody shows love towards me except young children and students? Why? I love others but I don’t get it back. Why? If I show kindness, I get harm in return. Why am I not receiving love?
According to what you wrote, children and students love you but adults to not. Why? I have no idea. Does lack of love from adults equal lack of love from God to you? I don’t understand how one follows from the other. God loves you know matter how much or little others respond to your love.